Friday, February 27, 2015

Kazbek and the Moon - A Poem





Kazbek and the Moon


Once we walked
where night birds swam
in the arms of a great harvest moon.
A coyote trailed us
through blue-white shadows,
while the wings of bats carried a whistling cry
to the shining planets.

I see him standing there, still
beneath the silver smile:
My Kazbek,
Comrade. Shield.
his shoulders standing strong
against the dark mysteries,
folding the bright moon
that restored my soul.

Our little coyote friend
wandered away
that night
and one night too
Kazbek wandered away
Never to be seen again
On the earth

Where he had walked
Loyal, innocent
Powerful, kind
Fierce, gentle

Under another moon
I will see you again
and feel your heart
My Kazbek
























Saturday, January 10, 2015

Yanqui - the Doodle Dandy: January 10, 2015

Yanqui is the dog that travels with us now. Rocky has come to her seniority and prefers to stay home. She is almost 13, and while still active and enjoying life, is not always at her best and does not enjoy the car as she once did. Thus, it is Yanqui who travels with us. He loves to go on errands with my husband, Mike, and he loves to go on family-oriented trips. We go to the beaches often, as they are dog-friendly where we live; and nice dogs - dogs neither looking for a fight nor human aggressive - are welcome in more places and venues than I have seen before on the coast.

Yanqui jumps in the car on the word "auto." We make him wait until invited and he trembles eagerly at the doorway, watching us load the car, put in his rugs and water, and generally prepare. He knows that if his beard and tail are brushed and his collar and tags put around his neck, the end result will be a trip.
He has been taught that holding still or even making a pretense of doing so, will get him what he wants, whereas jumping, flying around, or any other display of skitter, will result in him returning to his bed and being put on a wait. So he pretends that he is a fine and steady boy, just waiting for an invite at the door.

Yanqui is also one of those dogs that understands our human grooming habits. My husband worked all his life, from childhood, and still gets up early, takes his shower and gets dressed for a working day - whether that involves yard work, errands or paid labor. I, on the other hand, poke around, throw on some hideous "doggy" outfit - or worse, wander about in my robe - until the moment strikes when I'm feeling it, and I take a shower and dress for the day. But if I put on my lipstick and good shoes, Yanqui knows that is the signal (for him) that I will be going somewhere interesting, and he sure wants to come along.


However, it has been weird this past year for me to travel alone with a Labradoodle. I have always kept guard dogs and working breeds: terriers, German Shepherds, Caucasian Ovcharka -- dogs that people see and immediately realize might be very difficult to cross. Yanqui, due to his size and the cut we use on his rough coat, fools people, who typically believe him to be a young Irish Wolfhound. But he is really an engaging, unassuming, friendly, sensitive and jolly fellow, who likes almost everyone and would be happy to play with almost any dog. In this, I always say that he is most like my good-natured husband, whereas our old Raksha, the gruff Caucasian Ovcharka, suspicious of everyone and with her "friend wallet" already full, is much more like me.

In the past, with my bearish guard dogs, I have been used to going into the woods, hiking, or tramping off-road tracks with impunity, accompanied by a powerful and watchful companion. With Yanqui, it is I who must look over the area we wish to play in, and assess safety for us both. Are there any large, loose dogs, or dogs that have an unhealthy energy about them? Are there any large, loose men? I feel very protective of our sweet Doodle and know that he depends on me - whether he realizes it or not - to keep us safe.

Raksha would keep us both safe, and next to her, if she could. But at her age, it satisfies me to know that she is home, near her bed and water, near her grassy yards, sleeping soundly by the food bin. Warm, dry and safe. If there is hostility or danger, she is too old to handle it, although her huge and generous, brave and wild heart will always try. She will always try.



Yanqui is very communicative. He has learned a lot of "English" on his own. I tend to be repetitive in the words I speak to the dogs - not only with cue words (for example, one says Sit, not SIT-SITSIT or Sit-Down), but also with everyday conversational phrasing. Phrases the dogs often hear might include: "Are you hungry?"; "Treat [with any verb]"; "Time for bed"; and so on. Yanqui has picked up on repetitive phrasing of with alacrity and holds such phrases in his head without any special training or emphasis from our side. This shows intelligence, of course, but is not extremely unusual for a beloved companion dog. However, Yank also senses things I want from him, without training, and I do not understand how this happens.

For instance, we pick up the yard (poop!) every morning, or whenever we are outside and notice that something needs to be picked up. One day, early in Yanqui's life here, when he was perhaps 7 or 8 months of age, I was walking in the yard and stepped in something nasty. He was nearby and observed me jumping around, as people do, and cussing at myself. I found the scooper, removed the offending waste, and washed off my shoes.

A few days later, I was walking in the yard at twilight and noticed that Yanqui was standing quite still near the trees - stock still and staring at something in the yard. I don't know why or how I knew, but I felt he was identifying a pile of dog waste. And this proved to be true. I praised him for showing it to me, although I was not certain this had been Yanqui's intent. He has a physical habit of going into a freeze (similar to the gundog habit of honoring a point), but it is not always clear why. There are a number of stimuli that seem to cause this reaction in him, but dog poop really shouldn't be one such stiumulus.

However, after that "pointing" event, Yanqui has continued -- where the grass is deep, or the light is failing -- to indicate by freezing and staring that there is an errant pile of dog dung in the yard which lies exactly in the path of my forward motion. I cannot account for his doing this.

Another initiative Yanqui has developed involves cats. We keep three indoor cats and also feed and care for two semi-ferals that moved onto the property after we came here to live. In the beginning, the indoors and outdoors felines did not always get along. In addition, the outdoor cats occasionally attract or quarrel with other outdoor cats living in the neighborhood which attempt to pass through the yard.

When cat quarrels begin, I go and step between the animals and escort the offender off the property. One accomplishes this by ignoring one cat (typically one's own) and gently but firmly herding the other cat off the premises. As with dogs, if one charges into the fray, yelling and waving, a quarrel will escalate quickly and intensely into a full-on fight. The herding approach seems to work better.

As it happened, during one such feline outburst, Yanqui joined me in cat herding. He was merely an interested presence the first time; however, as a dog, his appearance was more disconcerting to the strange cat than was my own. I praised the dog for joining in, and ever since, when that yodeling scream that means cats are getting ready to quarrel is heard in the land, Yanqui will run to the quarrel and vibe both cats until one runs off. If I get there first, he will join me and do his thing. Standing close to the cats, he stiffens slightly, lifts his tail with a stiff little wag and gives them the eye. And off they run.  His canine presence stops the fight.

I didn't teach him; he just does it.

Rocky, of course, would chase a strange cat out of the yard if she saw it. But she is fairly deaf now - not completely so, but much of her hearing is impaired. And she loves her naps. So keeping the yard free of kitty quarrels is pretty much up to Yanqui and me.

This habit and ability of the Labradoodle to understand what is vague and untaught, and to act on that understanding is fascinating to me. It also forces me to be quiet, pay attention, be patient, and to avoid all coercion with the dog. It would appear, at least with Yanqui, that acting in any other mode than happy playfulness or quiet patience - i.e., to act out of frustration or annoyance, or to rush the dog with insensitive demand or domination - apparently extinguishes our connection, causing the Doodle to separate from me, both mentally and physically.

For me, the great joy of dogs lies in making that connection to their world and to the individual spirit. Yanqui is proving to be a wonderful teacher in many ways, but particularly in regard to how to connect, how to observe and perceive from my end, and with respect to the social niceties and the language of dogs. Fortunately for us both, I have now advanced through many stages of life and am moving back toward the beginning. And, in the beginning, all healthy humans are open, interested, intuitive, and able to connect and learn in a way they lose during that busy, productive and socially circumscribed time of life we define as adulthood.



Sunday, January 4, 2015

2015 begins

Here we are at the start of a new year. I am so lucky. All my family, and all my animals, are in good health and we have sufficient to eat, to be comfortable and secure with a roof above our heads, and the prospects for the rest of the year look wonderful.

Right now, the old cat (she is 18-1/2 years old) is sleeping in the bed. I can't make the bed when she is sleeping in it because her level of comfort, her sweet old calico self, her warm curled limbs, are not to be disturbed. She is like a picture made of sand - so beautiful, but the lightest touch would change the warmth and serenity she exudes. We cannot destroy the picture so there she lies, and the bed is unmade.



The Labradoodle is on his mattress in front of the bed. He has had several big days lately - run on the beach, run in the woods, walked in several towns, visited wineries, and just after getting over the holiday company which wore him out. His ears are a bit sensitive so he needed to go to town for a trim so that his inner ear doesn't get smelly and hinky, and that bit of beautifying is also exhausting for him.

Yesterday, he rode with us for hours, visiting wineries (he didn't taste). He was so very excited to be part of the day. Excitement is something he wears every day, like a favorite pair of boots. It is his birth right. In the correct place (at the beach, for example), his excitement is beautiful to see. He greets each day with wide, brilliant eyes and a gently smiling mouth. He arises in the hope of fun, food and happiness, greets his people with a joyful light, and spends his hours napping, chasing around the yard, fussing with "his" cats, annoying the old dog (Raksha), eating, sometimes training, sometimes car rides, sometimes bike runalongs, ball games, lovely hair brushing. When he runs, his youthful, muscular body gleams in the sunlight, and his longish curls flow like a river bouncing across the sward.

However, the tension in those muscles, and the excitement in that little mind, must be assuaged or he simply cannot control himself. I realized this yesterday. When we visited wineries (I was the driver; the husband was the taste tester), Yanqui was readily allowed in all of them. We are grateful to live in such a dog-friendly area. However, despite the recent holidays and the latish hour, the wineries had plenty of visitors and Yanqui's disposition requires him to be the Official Greeter, wherever he lands.

We struggled a bit, Yanqui and I, with his ---- enthusiasm. Yanqui has a natural attractiveness and an interesting look that draw attention to him. Unfortunately for me, his admirers have a tendency to lean in and grab at him, pet him, chirp to him, over-stimulate him, everywhere he goes. Without a nice dog-training club in the area, where one can "set up" situations, creating controlled interactions where one's dog may learn to respond politely to greetings of strangers, it has been challenging to assist the pup in learning that greeting an admirer does not require leaping up to kiss the nose of same, nor a well-meaning effort on the pup's part to slide between their legs and knock them over.


After a 10-minute session inside one winery, where I attempted to settle the dog with some long, but friendly, down stays and a bathroom break, the dog and I return to the car to renegotiate. My husband was still enjoying the camaraderie (and Zinfandel) in the winery, so I had the moment to myself.

Yanqui LOVES the training game. With or without the clicker. However, only with the clicker can he learn which moves get him where he wants to go. If it is a simple matter of treats in the pocket, while that makes him more attentive (he waits for the clicker game that he adores), if the next moments remain informal - that is, we are not working on behavior, just hanging out - he loses focus and goes into his "demented poodle" zone. The people around us do not see it. Yanqui isn't a "bad dog." But I see it.

Luckily for my dogs, I always take responsibility for their lack of manners. It is my responsibility to teach my dogs how to interact in the social situations I take them into. It is my responsibility to comprehend which social situations are correct and appropriate for the dog in my company. So while I cannot say I was not a bit fatigued by all this HAPPINESS, I knew that responsibility for mitigating the excitement lay directly on my shoulders.

Then I realized two things. (1) Yanqui needs more exercise. (2) I have been remiss in the consistent application of social training.

Yanqui does best and behaves best when he is taken daily, or as often as possible - i.e. 5+ times a week - on a bicycle runalong. If he trots a fast three miles a day, it takes all that edge off him, allowing him to be more sensible and engaged. If he does not get his directed runs, then an energy I deem "toxic" (because it makes him [and me] uncomfortable) begins to build in his body and he cannot get rid of it on his own.

Were he a hunting dog (the Doodle being a combination of two hunting breeds), he would be taking directed runs in the woods for 6 hours at a time, so he does have energy to burn. Were he a wild dog, he would be doing the same thing, only in that case, he would be self-directed to find food or die.

However, he is a companion dog and the only way he can work off energy is with my help. Some folks believe that having a big yard, or even a few acres to run in, will drain the energy from their dogs. If the dog is running in a pack, this can happen. Although it will not improve the relationships between dog and human, pack interactions that include long runs and instinctive hunting, will definitely tire a dog. However, a dog alone, even if it runs all around the yard, is indulging in self-stimulating behavior. Self-stimulating behavior is always repetitive and becomes obsessive-compulsive. OC behavior is toxic and builds up in the body creating peculiar behaviors in the dog that are very difficult to overcome later in life - it might be coprophagia, it might be rock hunting and chewing, it might be mindless barking, it might be running until the paws are injured and toenails torn. OCD is NOT where we want our dogs to go.

On the other hand, "directed" exercise is stimulation that has parameters, a beginning and an end. The dog is not in control of it and must focus sufficiently to engage in the exercise. By creating directed exercises for our dogs, we rid them of toxic energy build-up, create focus, and empower our own relationships by enjoying active time together wherein we are also in a leadership position with the dog.

For Yanqui, the best directed exercise is running with the bicycle. I am unable to move fast enough, or jog fast enough, to move Yanqui beyond a striding walk. He is too big, too muscular, too fast to get any real exercise walking with me unless we walked for many hours. And when the  weather is poor - too hot, too cold - I tend to let down on my end. When bicycling isn't fun; I don't make myself do it.

Further inquiry into Yanqui's exciting day at the wineries brought the realization that while Yanqui gets out and about almost every day, I prefer the home life and the land and walks nearby, whereas my husband likes to take Yanqui to town with him. My husband makes every effort to handle Yanqui correctly and consistently, but - let's face it - I am the practiced dog trainer and handler. If Yanqui needs to learn something new, or needs to learn how to behave consistently in social situations, it is I who needs to take him and teach him.

I have been remiss in this due to my preference for home. When I was unattached, naturally I ran all the errands and had to go here, there, and the other place, usually in the company of my dogs. In the past, I have also been most fortunate in finding nearby dog clubs where my dogs could spend time learning in a controlled environment. The situation here and now is different.

So it was not really Yanqui "being uproarious" at the wineries. The fact was that Yanqui was under-exercised and under-trained for the situation. Dog problems are almost always the reflection of some lack of skill or action on the part of the person in charge. Healthy dogs, in a natural environment, won't have problems. But in the unnatural environment of domesticity, dogs need support to learn how to get the most out of every day and every moment we provide them.





As for the other animals here: the two humans are doing very well. The two other house cats, Fiona and Teddy, are very happy. Although they must share time in the living room with the old lady cat (we don't put the three together as then it becomes two younger ones versus one much-older one), and they only get minimal outdoor time, their lives are wonderful and they seem to recognize that. We are fortunate to have them. Teddy, 8 years old now, was found as a 5-week old kitten, trying to cross the freeway. I was able to pull over and rescue her, even though she was feral at the time. The gods were with us both on that day! Teddy is small and heavy set, with a very distinct personality and a whiff of the wild wherever she goes. Fiona was brought home from a rescue, to be Teddy's pal. She is now 7 years old. Delicately put together, very beautiful - rather a fuss-budget when it comes to other cats.

They have each had their small physical challenges. Fiona is a bit allergic and sometimes gets too many tears in one eye, which need to be gently washed away. Teddy once had a very distressing UTI. But both are well and happy now - a great way to begin this year.


Then we have the two boys that moved into our yard. Both are semi-feral and belong to the neighbor but they have moved in here. They sleep around our yard and beg for food, which we have given them after holding out for almost two years. Because they are always here (and the neighbor doesn't do it), we have become responsible for de-flea and de-worm. She does give them innoculations. They contact our cats and dash in and out of our house, so we cannot let them bring health or pest problems into the environment. Not that we would wish to do that anyway, even if our other animals were not at risk.

One of these cats (I call him Cinders though that is not his name), came to us on his own. He was always around the house, since we moved in. But after about a year, he began to come to the door, crying and talking. We knew he was well fed, and innoculated, but he certainly didn't look great and he never stopped scratching. Somehow I made friends with him sufficient to allow me to touch him and look him over. He had a terrible case of fleas and a terrible case of worms. Easy enough to sort out. I de-flea'd him with Frontline and de-wormed him with an OTC powder mixed with tuna. And afterward, he never left again.



The second cat, a tuxedo like Cinders, had also always hung around our property but mainly peripherally - never coming close. However, after Cinders moved in, the other cat began to come to the door for food. He would stand on his hind legs, and scratch at the window, looking in like a lost child. Eventually, we gave in to Fat Boy's food demands, and he too began to sleep around the porches and decided he would only "go home" in the early mornings when canned food is being given out across the way. Fat Boy, once situated, decided he needed to tell all the other cats that they needed to stay away and that was an interesting phenomenon to deal with.

I began by interceding between Fatty and any other cat, and then I would purposefully walk toward Fatty, vibing him with my "powers" and sending the message that, if he started fussing, I would escort him off the property. Raksha had been shown both cats and told that they were "mine"; therefore, she is not to chase nor harm them. Other than scouting for cat food bowls that may have been left out, she has ignored them both ever since.



Yanqui, on the other hand, decided that he could assist me in keeping Fat Boy from fussing and feuding. I have had German Shepherds that assisted me in herding animals, and that kind of made sense, although one wonders how the dogs realize what we have in mind when we are trying to keep two animals separate so they don't fight. However, with a Labradoodle, basic hunting stock, it was surprising to see that Yanqui understood my technique of getting in between the combatants and then gently moving the fussing one off the territory.


Whenever Yanqui goes out in the yard, night or day, good or bad weather, the outdoor cats rush to greet him, sometimes running in at top speed from some other part of the property. Rubbing on him, playing with him, mimicking his grass eating, and lying between his paws when he takes a rest.


Last but not least, our beautiful Raksha. Our Caucasus Sheepdog. Our Russian Shepherd. Our Kavkaz.



Raksha is almost 13 years old. She loves to be unfettered and is restless in the house, except in the evening, or when my husband is out of town. The restlessness is not related to his presence, as she does not like to stay in whether he is at home, on errands, or working. However, if he is out of town, she is aware of that somehow, and then she wants to be inside. It is obviously part of her genetic code to "watch the sheep" (in this case, that would include myself, Yanqui and the cats).

In the spring and summer, and most of the fall, we are in and out, or outdoors, almost as much as she - and all the doors and windows are open to the air (and to wandering dogs and cats). During the winter, it is more challenging to give her the special time for herself and me that we both need. We compensate by having her bed in the laundry area where we spend a lot of time anyway, and by giving her walks at night under the cold moon, which she really enjoys. She also requires, and receives, a lot of grooming for her long, thick coat. Rocky always sleeps indoors at night, which gives us cuddle time and time for extra dog treats which she earns by sitting or lying down on command, and then by turning her head away from the treat until it is left on her pillow. Then it is her time to "guard." Once Raksha is given her cue to "Guard," she remains in her sleeping area on her own, and rests quietly until the dawn.

Recently, Rocky was out of sorts. Because she is very old, especially for a large dog, her less-than-enthusiastic way of being was presumed to be age related. As always, she was eating well. Struggling a little to get up - but hip xrays several years ago proved that her hip sockets were deteriorated fairly acutely so difficulty getting up was not a surprise. Then she urinated on the carpet, and I knew she was sick.

At first, the vet - again, looking at age - thought it was probably behavioral. But this is a dog who has never had an accident in the house, even as a pup. The CO is a very "clean" breed - in other words, very easy to housebreak in their puppyhood and with a strong built-in desire to leave waste products far from where they eat and sleep. We gave her a urine test but the results, although a bit inconsistent, did not show UTI. We know, however, that un-differentiated urine tests are pretty unreliable and we began to treat with Keflex. The results were amazing. Not only did she get better, but within 24 hours, I had a different dog.

When starting treatment, this 12-1/2 year old dog was like a 13 year old dog nearing the end of its earth time. After a day of treatment, I had a 10 year old dog, happy with life. After completion of treatment, Rocky is bouncy, smiling, and bright eyed. When I looked up UTI general information, I discovered that not all individuals, including humans, even experience discomfort related to a bladder infection. And that there are many ways to culture out urine tests. While a lab test may easily confirm a bladder infection, it also turns out that a negative culture is still inconclusive. Important information, as an undiagnosed and untreated bladder infection can kill the individual.

Although I was able to describe a few symptoms of unwellness to the vet when we took Rocky in, the entire set of symptoms became more apparent to me after she was on the road to recovery. Going in, we noticed she was lethargic and had urinated on the carpet. Furthermore, she smelled terrible. We could not determine if the odor was from her longhair pants, or her breath, or coming from her sleeping mats. It smelled like pee or cabbage or morning mouth - altogether - and strongly so. Just nasty.

However, now that she is better, I would add: she had stopped wagging her tail. Her eyes had dimmed and become a bit unfocussed. She panted a lot despite the weather having turned cold. She struggled to get up, not because she was trying to use front end alone to arise (typical with bad hips) but because she had lost the strength or get-up-and-go to arise. She was also a bit stumbly and walked very very slowly indeed, though she still struggled up for her night time walk unless I was very very late and she was deeply snoozing by the time the walk was proposed. Her coat was dry and her poop was like a goat: marbles.

Now she is bouncing, bright-eyed, happy and smiling. Her stomach is working properly. She struggles to avoid her hips when getting up, but is happy and willing to arise. Her coat looks fantastic. She is ready for fun, walking at a good pace for her age. Her housebreaking issue is gone (although I do think she is reaching an age where when she has to go - she has to go!).

I am SO VERY GRATEFUL to have this old dog in my life. To be able to care for her needs, to prolong her life so she can continue to enjoy the warm sunshine, her people, her "pets" and charges, and - of course - her grub!

Rocky loves a cuddle above all things. She enjoys being groomed and relaxes with a grunt when it begins, although she will lift her head and look at me should there be any hair-pulling or rough cutting of strands beginning to mat. Her expression is mild and benign but a bit accusatory: "you wouldn't pull my hair, would you?" she seems to say. Rocky loves to tell me things about dogs, as did Kazbek (also a CO) before her.

She has told me that dogs do not live "only a few years" as we sadly believe. But, rather, they live at a much slower pace, so that each fast year for us is as 10 long years to them. This allows them to see, scent, savor and observe. They are able to move at such sudden speed - to catch a rabbit, to pull a Frisbee from the air, to snap a fly out of existence - because in their slow motion world there is plenty of time to see and react to what is occurring. For us, running on a charged battery and going as fast as we are able, multi-tasking, running in place on the chess board of life, it is hard to see or feel anything except as a fleeting sensation. But dogs are in it, feeling it and living every moment of their lives.

This is a wonderful lesson and a wonderful model for we humans to follow. Genetically, we are born to live much this way but due to environment, social pressure, and "progress," the world will not allow us to do so.

Wordsworth said it:

         THE world is too much with us; late and soon,
          Getting and spending, we lay waste our powers:
          Little we see in Nature that is ours;
          We have given our hearts away, a sordid boon!
          The Sea that bares her bosom to the moon;
          The winds that will be howling at all hours,
          And are up-gathered now like sleeping flowers;
          For this, for everything, we are out of tune;
          It moves us not.--Great God! I'd rather be
          A Pagan suckled in a creed outworn;                          
          So might I, standing on this pleasant lea,
          Have glimpses that would make me less forlorn;
          Have sight of Proteus rising from the sea;
          Or hear old Triton blow his wreathed horn.
                                                   

Triton blows his horn still for my Raksha. And in her strong and beautiful company, I hear his call. I feel the wind and know from which way to best scent it. I watch the gathering clouds, embrace the pink sunset, and walk beneath a blue white moon or a thousand stars, with an old dog at my side.

And thus begins, for this small family of two and four legged ones, a new year. Bright, beautiful, full of hope, and the opportunity to love.



Happy New Year
to the Earth
and All who Live
upon it


Monday, December 8, 2014

Need to Believe - Christmas 2014

Need to Believe
Christmas, 2014

We need to believe in a better world, where people cherish family, love and raise their own small passel of children, where everyone can be educated who wishes it, where major illnesses are cared for without financially destroying people, where men and women, children and animals, are supported in their right to live freely, breathe pure air, drink clean and plentiful water, and be free of oppression and suffering perpetrated on them by mankind itself.

Somehow we have been sold the idea that peace is wimpy and violence is not only the essence of manhood, but fun - entertainment. Yet it is peace, love and healing which lie at the core of all joy, wisdom and prosperity - the soul in civilization itself. Only in peace can the human mind be deeply creative; only in peace can we raise children who will be kind, responsible, humane and hopeful; only in peace can we do lasting good in the world. Only with love can we see beauty, experience it in our souls, cherish it and make it grow. Only by healing, ourselves and our planet, can we even hope to survive.

So say a prayer, whisper a good word, think a good thought, touch someone you love, look into the eyes of your friends, hold a child's hand, embrace your lover, pat your dog. Write a letter. Sign a petition. Save the planet. Pay it forward, and love back.



A Day in the Life: Yanqui's sire




Soft sunshine today, after days and days of rain, overcast and drizzle. However, the moisture has been more than welcome. At last, our Labradoodle, Yanqui, can get a bike run. He has been trying so hard to hold himself in and not be Crazy Boy. He's fine until I try to play with him, then he gets so excited he stomps on my feet and keeps bumping me with his nose, so he really needs this run. When my sisters visited over Thanksgiving, the weather was fine and we biked most days and also walked. Since Thanksgiving it's been rain, rain rain. 

Last night, we got out under the stars. Poppi was snoozing, but the dogs and I walked beneath a blue moon. There was a bit of mud, but - according to the dogs - everything smelled delightful. The frogs are back, singing in the vineyard ponds. Tonight is the Christmas Parade and I am hoping we can make it into town to see it. The parade is a very "small town" event, with some floats but mostly regular cars, lit with strands of bulbs and carrying hometown revelers. There are always families with dogs in the parade: dogs in antlers; dogs in Santa hats.

We met Yanqui's Sir-to-be at the first Christmas Parade we attended here. It was so cold, and, after introductions, I "asked" the Standard Poodle next to me to keep me warm. During most of the Parade, he either leaned on me or sat on my feet, despite having a loving owner on the other end of the leash. He was also a very well set-up dog with excellent bone and a nice solid head. So I asked his owner about him and she said he was going to be at stud, but not for Standards. She was going to raise Doodles. Mikey, having had a long term love affair with Labradoodles wherever we met them, got her name and number. Two years later, Yanqui was born. I had just had surgery and didn't feel I was yet ready for a pup, having only the use of one arm at the time. But we went to see the last pup left from the litter, also the biggest, and I took him for a walk. At 14 weeks, and with little previous experience, he responded perfectly to leash pressure, and had a very nice, easygoing yet friendly and chummy way about him. Mike was sold when he went back to the car to get something and the pup ran after him, as if to say, "Aren't you taking me home, Mister?" 

We had to leave Yanqui (then "Samwise") with the breeder that afternoon, but were back the very next morning to pick him up. On the first day in his new home, Yanqui donned his "Raksha collar" (made from her fur). We hoped that his being a pup, plus smelling like her, might encourage or fool her into accepting him as one of her own. With a slow, 2-day introduction, they met and were comfortable together from the beginning. He wanted to play, but she wanted him to be a good boy, and stand back a bit - puhleeze! Now they are a team - a weird team, admittedly, but a team nonetheless. If he hears her bark, he runs to back her up (while staying out of her way - very diplomatically!) If she notices that he hears something she can't hear, or sees something she hasn't seen, she responds to his cue. Yanqui is the only creature, besides myself and Poppi, who is allowed in Rocky's sacred Laundry Room space (which contains the food bins and a well-used and well-loved orthopedic dog bed). Rocky won't even allow our cats in there. Due to her advanced age, we permit her this small grudge. 

Below is the Dynamic Duo. Who says opposites can't attract?



Tuesday, September 30, 2014

KAZBEK and the ATM


KAZBEK STOPS A ROBBERY



Kazbek and I loved to wander at night. We would hop in the van around 8:00 p.m., take off to the burger stand (I admit to a one-time addiction to the Inn-n-Out Double-Double burger). After a feast, we would head off to a park, or to the wilderness of Vasquez Rocks, a desert recreation area which was a vast and magical terrain under the full blue moon.

One evening, around 11 p.m., I realized my purse was empty and decided to stop by the sidewalk ATM outside the bank. This particular machine was next to a large grocery that stayed open until midnight. When we drew up to the well-lit parking lot, I noticed a decent number of shoppers were still out and about - a comforting sight.

Like so many women, I cannot just park and get out of the car. I have to rummage in my purse first, maybe put on some lipstick, check to see if I have my keys, and so forth. Kazbek, a very relaxed and pleasant passenger in the car, laid low in the back seat while I was doing all this.

While fumbling through the before-I-exit routine, I saw some young people horsing around. The "game" didn't seem to make much sense but I couldn't help notice it. It went like this: an older teenage girl stood next to her car with her cell phone, making a call. Down another part of the parking lot, away from the grocery and not well lit because the surrounding stores were closed, stood a young man - also on a cell. In the meantime, a teenage boy on a banana bike rode up and down in the same general area. Gestures and eye contact made it apparent that the girl on the phone and the guy in the shadows were talking to each other. Why the kid was bicycling at 11:00 p.m., I did not know. None of it made much sense to me. "Kids!" I thought.

I got out the bank card and started to exit but hesitated; on a whim, I decided to walk Kazbek over to the ATM with me. He walked wonderfully on a leash and you would never believe such a huge animal could be like a feather on leather! I loved going places with him and seldom thought of his built-in utility factor.

We were about 10 car lengths and a driveway distant from the ATM, so it took a minute to get there. The card buzzed in its slot while I waited for the cash.  Just as I took the money out, bicycle boy came riding fast, straight at us. Kazbek immediately charged the boy on the bike - a full frontal assault. The youth hit the brakes hard, skidded and fell sideways but didn't crash. I took my time putting the cash in my wallet, allowing Kazbek to posture and growl while I continued to look into the boy's eyes, letting him see that I understood what he was about and had no fear of him.

As I returned to the car with Kazbek, the youth followed at a distance. He asked me if I could "spare some change" and I said, No. He asked me if the dog would bite him, and I said, Yes. He then asked if he could "borrow" some money!

I told him to ask the dog.

Of course, after the event I could see the whole ploy: the innocent looking girl in the visible area of the parking lot uses her cell to tell the guy in the shadows she has spotted a likely target. That man then alerts the boy on the bicycle; they watch for the right time, give a signal and the boy rides in to grab the purse, or the cash, or whatever, from the intended victim.

Victim profile: woman - with wallet - alone in the  night. But not so alone as they thought.




Dogs of My Life - Wolfgang (Covy Tucker Hill's Wolfgang)



Wolfgang





I purchased Wolfgang, a handsome six month old German Shepherd, from a famous show kennel. I had done my homework - or thought I had - but did not realize that there might be a difference between a "reputable kennel" and a kennel "with a big reputation."

Wolfgang was beautiful, brilliant, devoted, kind, and an excellent watchdog. He seemed generally healthy until he was almost two, when he began to develop seizures. These seizures were controllable, with medication, for about a year and a half. Then even with medication, the seizures became uncontrollable and Wolfgang lost his fight for survival before he was six years old.

At one time, I thought that his seizures were related to his breeding, and while they may have been (the breeders became incommunicado even before I had the opportunity to ask questions as to what was happening), I now believe that his epilepsy resulted when my vet started him on the first oral medication for flea control. The medication was withdrawn from the market within a short time, but this was before the Internet and easy access to information about dangerous drugs. Even today, the oral anti-flea medications on the market are still causing epilepsy in some dogs, as well as other dangerous side effects, up to and including death.

However, from his first months with me and until he was well into his fourth year, Wolf was the most brilliant dog! He learned so many words - some via training, others from the natural conditioning of repeated speech. Sometimes I would sit in a chair and tell him "dog" stories. They went something like this: "Cookie, Wolfy? Ball? Go for a walk? Let's eat. Where's the car?" and so on. He would look into my eyes. then cock his head, first to the right, then to the left, his ears erect, trying to figure out what the story of words might mean in his world. 

Wolfgang, Wolfgang, you were a joy to me. 

Wolf was my first school-trained dog. We attended many formal classes and spent a lot of time on the homework. A typical GSD, Wolfy ate that obedience stuff up, and he was a very mannerly guy. I could take him anywhere; he was always the gentleman.

Until the day, setting up for an event, I was in a public building with Wolfgang at my side, off-leash: a kind, naturally calm and attentive German Shepherd just hanging out with his gal. Involved in and distracted by my tasks, I suddenly realized Wolf had left my side, growling under his breath. I turned to look and saw two young men I'd never seen before, standing in the doorway. One sported an arm sling and seemed to be mumbling; the other was staring at me intently, but changed to a fake smile and asked if he might have some coffee. Now my dog was circling the room, herding them away from me.

I don't remember what my response to the request for coffee was, but the two guys began to come in closer, the man with the simper maneuvering position while the other guy continued to avoid eye contact and mumble. I should say, they "tried" to come into the room because now Wolfgang, a good 100-pound animal, began to bark loudly, pacing in front of them, back and forth, making that eye contact. The mutterer finally looked up, stared straight at me and made some creepy, carnal remarks - I don't remember exactly what he said, but it was unprintable and included sex and knives. I froze for a moment, relying on Wolfgang to keep the peace while I plotted an exit. Just as the tension built to the point where either the dog was going to do something or the weird guys were, several invitees showed up, most of them men. The mumbler turned on the new guys and began to threaten them. The normals immediately perceived that the other two were very strange, but tried at first to be nice about it, telling the odd fellows the event was private and they had to go. From this point, the situation deteriorated completely and a wrestling match ensued. Gents won hands down, and the two weirdos were forced to leave and firmly advised not to return. I later heard that those peculiar boys had both been released that very day from a nearby mental facility! So Wolfgang was right on, and acted appropriately on his instincts. 

Wolf was also my first trial dog. Thus far, I had only managed to mangle training on the bull terrier years earlier. I wanted to be a great dog handler but had NO IDEA what I was doing. There are many things one learns if one wishes to achieve those AKC obedience certificates, but, as is typical in the dog training world, while the realities of what the dog is expected to do are clearly laid out by your instructors (he will heel on lead, sit, down, sit-stay, down-stay, recall, and then you will leave), the human side of handling is largely ignored. There are many books written on the subject of how to train a dog for obedience trials, but the fact that you, especially if you are a newbie, are going to probably be out of your mind with stage fright before you begin your first trial is seldom addressed. To be honest, other than what I just said there, I never read a thing about it! Human stage fright is, in my opinion, the number one reason why, when it comes time for the ring, the dog that performed well in class or at home turns into "the thing that cannot be controlled." 

Fortunately, Wolfgang was totally bonded to me - more than I deserved, I assure you. Although as far as lifestyle went, I was an outdoor girl, and with good vet care, good food, training classes that he loved, and lots of hiking, I think Wolf had a pretty good life and was fulfilled in his basic needs. Be that as it may, he was wonderful in trials. His lowest score was a 195 and the only reason he was in the ring that day was because I didn't want to lose the entry fee and the event was very close by.

As I said, Wolfgang had all the diseases of the German Shepherd breed, except those that exhibit late in life because he didn't have a long life. One of his problems was panosteitis, which plagued his youth for about a year. So, even though I had entered him in a trial, he was a bit feverish and lame for about a month before the trial, and we did not have an opportunity to practice. However, the day of the event, Wolf suddenly recovered completely, so we jumped in the car at the last minute and went. We actually missed our call-up but they let us in as the last to compete, and we drew a 195 and 3rd highest in trial that day. Wolf's other scores on other days (there were no 4-show weekends back then) were a 196 and a 197. As a result, we were invited to the Gaines Regional Obedience Trial in Oregon. I don't believe that event exists anymore but it was a thrill to be invited and it was all due to Wolfgang because, frankly, I barely knew what I was doing much of the time. 

However, as noted, Wolfgang was not a healthy animal. And I was a poor young secretary living on my own, spending hundreds of dollars, almost monthly, from the time he was barely two years old until he was six years old, trying to cure him. In particular, I wanted to cure or control his epilepsy, but within a few years, no drug or combination of drugs available could assuage his condition. By the time he was six, the pills had left him in a kind of eternal stupor, with skin sores and weakness, condemned to a half-life of anxiety and medication as his daily portion. 

It broke my heart to let him go. Our own vet, having worked with us for years trying to save the dog, told me it would be more than his professional reserve could support for him to come put the dog down so I called around for a vet who would come out to the house. This kind gentleman gave Wolfy a tranquilizer first, then gave us our moments to say goodbye. Somehow the tranquilizer seemed to relieve the dog's mind and body and for the first time in years, Wolfgang and I looked into each other's eyes with complete recognition. There was his intelligence; there was his heart. He was quiet for the final injection, no struggle. And then he was gone. 

If you lose your mother, your brother, your spouse, your best friend, the world sympathizes with you. People bring cake. Speeches are made. Flowers are sent. But when you lose your best friend, and it's a dog, few people are truly sympathetic. "Get another dog," they say, "that will cheer you up." Some folks look at you - your sadness, your tears - as if you are soft in the head. Even dog lovers sometimes avoid the friend who's lost their dog because they haven't the strength to share the pain, having been through it themselves. You are lonely because the one who shared every day with you, and added fun, safety, exercise and activity - the special one, the beautiful one - is gone. And you are made lonelier by the fact that there is nowhere to go with your pain - a sadness that disturbs you and separates you from others. 

Several months after Wolfgang's passing, I mentioned to a friend how badly I felt about letting him go. His body could have kept moving for a few more weeks or months, although his mind was not really there. Should I have stayed my hand and kept him longer? Did I do the right things by him, or was I all wrong in everything? My friend told me to try this: Go somewhere quiet and call up memories of my Wolfgang. See him sitting beside me and look into his eyes, look deeply - what do you see? She said that if I did this it would relieve me. 

One evening, alone in my little house, I did as my friend suggested.  Taking a few deep breaths, I closed my lids, and brought Wolfgang to me. I looked into his deep, dark eyes - so wise and benign. There was nothing of the parent there, with the "you should have's", nothing of the sibling with the, "she loved you best" rivalries, there was only the soul of a dog, and it said to me: I see you. I know who you are. I don't see what you are fearing and what is searing your soul with grief and self-doubt. I know about it, but I don't see it. I see inside you to the golden light that is your soul and is your connection to the gods themselves. I have always seen it. That is what I was devoted to. That is what I loved. That is what I came to when you called me today. I saw it then. I see it now. I will always see it. And when you return to us one day, to we who have loved you so, you will see it too. 

Thank you, Wolfgang, for loving me. For loving me even when I could not love myself. You are ever in my heart.